yay! today juz received mail from safra that i got shortlisted for the sponsorship. going for interview coming thursday. omg omg, i must make it! pls pls pls pls pls

I'm back to being normal again! new aim : to work out, 100x push ups daily routine and swim as often as possible! wanna gain some weight and muscle, LOL =X anyway, juz finished watching "huan huan ai" and i really wonder if girls really go by the quote ‘男人不壞﹐女人不愛’ HAHA, seriously, altho i know its just a show but i really think that it happens in real life too. and i feel lonely all of a sudden, if only i'm attached now, i'd be going down to her place and give her a hug, nothing special.. jz because i feel like it =) and...... when i recall wat i did over the past 2 days, i'm disappointed at myself, like wth am i thinking?!! but anyway, i told qin that i will not allow that to happen to me anymore, and i dont like to break promises. so... Jia you ba﹐ 我﹗﹗

有感覺過連眼淚都流不出的悲傷嗎? 我終於體會過了。。。。。。
如果我不再了﹐ 會不會都讓他們都過的好一點呢。。。。。

maybe I am better off alone... but when i dont call, it doesnt mean i dont care anymore, its just I need you more than you do

dont dare to wish anymore, because without wishes, there will not be disappointment

some things are better left alone, things will take place if they are meant to be

sometimes, being emo is a way to be honest with yourself
but..... its just too sad

praying deep from my heart that hoping your fairytale will blossom =)

我的愛人

我知道故事不會太曲折
wo zhi dao gu shi bu hui tai qu zhe
I know this story is pretty straightforward

我總會遇見一個什麼人
wo zong hui yu jian yi ge shen me ren
I will find someone

陪我過沒有了她的人生
pei wo guo mei you le ta de ren sheng
To accompany me along the life without her

成家立業之類的等等
cheng jia li ye zhi lei de deng deng
Settle down, good career and everything

她做了她覺得對的選擇
ta zuo le ta jue de dui de xuan ze
Since she's made the choice she thinks is right

我只好祝福她真的對了
wo zhi hao zhu fu ta zhen de dui le
I can only give her my blessings

愛不到我最想要愛的人
ai bu dao wo zui xiang yao ai de ren
I can't love the person that I really want to

誰還能要我怎樣呢
shui hai neng yao wo zhen me ne
What else can I do?

我愛的人 不是我的愛人
wo ai de ren / bu shi wo de ai ren
The person I love is not my lover

她心裡每一寸 都屬於另一個人
ta xin li mei yi cun / dou shu yu ling yi ge ren
Every inch in her heart has been taken by the other person

她真幸福 幸福得真殘忍
ta zhen xin fu / xin fu de zhen can ren
She's really happy and this happiness is cruel

讓我又愛又恨 她的愛怎麼那麼深
rang wo you ai you hen / ta de ai zen me na me shen
Makes me love and hate how can her love be that deep

我的愛人 她已有了愛人
wo de ai ren / ta yi you le ai ren
The person I love has a lover

從他們的眼神 說明了我不可能
cong ta men de yan shen / shuo ming le wo bu ke neng
The look in their eyes tells it all, it's impossible for me

每當聽見 她或他說(我們)
mei dang ting jian / ta huo ta shuo (wo men)
Everytime I hear them use 'we'

就像聽見愛情 永恆的嘲笑聲
jiu xiang ting jian ai qing / yong heng de chao xiao sheng
It's just like love, laughing at me, eternally

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Just read her blog today, she's attached. shld've guessed it when i felt the way she chats differs from the usual. also, there was the dream, haa... guess i'm still a failure. knowing that she's attached made my chest feels tight but at the same time, a feeling of defeat. nonetheless, hopes for the best for her

:is loving the person you love the most OR loving the person who love you the most: