praying deep from my heart that hoping your fairytale will blossom =)

我的愛人

我知道故事不會太曲折
wo zhi dao gu shi bu hui tai qu zhe
I know this story is pretty straightforward

我總會遇見一個什麼人
wo zong hui yu jian yi ge shen me ren
I will find someone

陪我過沒有了她的人生
pei wo guo mei you le ta de ren sheng
To accompany me along the life without her

成家立業之類的等等
cheng jia li ye zhi lei de deng deng
Settle down, good career and everything

她做了她覺得對的選擇
ta zuo le ta jue de dui de xuan ze
Since she's made the choice she thinks is right

我只好祝福她真的對了
wo zhi hao zhu fu ta zhen de dui le
I can only give her my blessings

愛不到我最想要愛的人
ai bu dao wo zui xiang yao ai de ren
I can't love the person that I really want to

誰還能要我怎樣呢
shui hai neng yao wo zhen me ne
What else can I do?

我愛的人 不是我的愛人
wo ai de ren / bu shi wo de ai ren
The person I love is not my lover

她心裡每一寸 都屬於另一個人
ta xin li mei yi cun / dou shu yu ling yi ge ren
Every inch in her heart has been taken by the other person

她真幸福 幸福得真殘忍
ta zhen xin fu / xin fu de zhen can ren
She's really happy and this happiness is cruel

讓我又愛又恨 她的愛怎麼那麼深
rang wo you ai you hen / ta de ai zen me na me shen
Makes me love and hate how can her love be that deep

我的愛人 她已有了愛人
wo de ai ren / ta yi you le ai ren
The person I love has a lover

從他們的眼神 說明了我不可能
cong ta men de yan shen / shuo ming le wo bu ke neng
The look in their eyes tells it all, it's impossible for me

每當聽見 她或他說(我們)
mei dang ting jian / ta huo ta shuo (wo men)
Everytime I hear them use 'we'

就像聽見愛情 永恆的嘲笑聲
jiu xiang ting jian ai qing / yong heng de chao xiao sheng
It's just like love, laughing at me, eternally

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Just read her blog today, she's attached. shld've guessed it when i felt the way she chats differs from the usual. also, there was the dream, haa... guess i'm still a failure. knowing that she's attached made my chest feels tight but at the same time, a feeling of defeat. nonetheless, hopes for the best for her

:is loving the person you love the most OR loving the person who love you the most:

It hurts to know that u're in trouble yet there is nothing that I can do.

It hurts even more when I dont know what I can do for you.

Sometimes, I question my existance.

Then I conclude that I'm here for U.

My Valentine

Today, i made a confession. Whether the choice is right or wrong, it doesnt matter. what matters is, she get to know how i feel. I'm not asking anything in return, but i ask for nothing bad to happen. If it turns out we are not meant to be, sincerely.... I hope that this relationship now will not cease to be.......

Single Heart

haha, a poem i wrote a long time ago, lol, must be damn emo then

Single Heart
Brushing the air, gliding thru the sky
lighting every star along with my mind
painting the moon a quarter white
leaving the shadow covering the rest
even if I'm not the one who knows you best
I'm sure I cared for you more than the rest

In the night, you're always on my mind
In the day, you always make me shine
should one day you leave me behind
I will only say “You did it because you're kind”

In starless night feeling the breeze
My happiness left its only least
The smile of moon cant be seen
But somehow i still believe in
That one day u might realize
I’m always by your side
Hoping to be your guide
To love you with the rest of My Life

I regard my life resembling a lock
Thus walking this earth searching the key
Meeting you might be unnecessary
But loving you sure is my task
"why is it so?" you wondered and asked
Needless for even a second I answered
“Because you're my one and only,
You are part of my destiny“

Days has passed so as months
Its been so long since the last glance
We might be near yet so far
“Are u still the one" YES u are
Even so, we might not be one
friend or buddy, at least we can
your smile has always liven my day
so from today onwards I will pray
that even on the day that I die
i would never want to see you cry

Totally Off-Guard

Something caught me totally off-guard last night......
Second uncle passed away just like that.....
Life is really so fragile.....
The moment mum break the news to me, I dont know how to react at all
It come so sudden......the moment i heard of it, I cant help but think of my cousins
It must be hard on them and to think that 3 of them are actually away from studying
Imagine while you're away and u receive a phonecall that break this bad news
I cant imagine how would they feel.....
I cant go back due to my commitments here in NS
I really dont know how should i react.........

Hm...... been to reine's 21st birthday party, really grand and the food is superb! she even has dresscode for the invited. haha, its nice to see all at one place again. Other than that, the week had been busy with alot of checks, packing, conducting of exercises and of cuz slacking. Hahas..... Oh yea, Yi finally done with her graduation ceremony and will be coming back like tml? hehs, looking forward to meeting her again. well, today just attended this financial planning session with sharon, she's a nice girl and very friendly. of cuz, the session is really useful and really sets me thinking of my own future as well as helped me to realize where am I standing right now. can you believe it? i need to save up more than 2m in order for me to live a good comfortable life till i'm 83 yrs old..... scary...... yup, thats all about it for the past week.....felt emo again but still okay la....

Toki ga kuru, Hito ga hanareru

It just felt like they were no longer the ones i knew.
Is it me, or is it them? Or could be both parties?

kino demo nai
(its not yesterday)
ototoi demo nai
(its not the day before)
zutto mae kara
(since a long time ago)
nani ga atta ka wakaranai
(i don't know what happen)
demo, hitotsu dake ga kikitai
(there's only one thing i want to know)
kore kara maada yuujin ni dekiru no?
(from now on, are we still friends?)

Thank You

Thank You

Sometimes
words aren't

enough to

express the

gratitude

I feel.

Please accept

this token

as a reflection

of my deep

appreciation

of everything

you do for me..

Thank You.

was just looking at a memento may ying sent me sometime ago, haha. makes me think back of last time. reminiscence......